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Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Toxic Inventory

Have you ever taken serious time to take an inventory of what could be causing your toxic burden?  If you have chronic illness this is an essential step towards wellness.  Our bodies are saturated with illness and we must help our poor bodies out and begin to volitionally remove these burdens.  Most of us know that we need to remove toxic fabrics, household cleaners, bath and beauty products, perfumes and air fresheners, amalgam fillings, avoidance of the use of and exposure to heavy metals, laundry soap, food additives, and anything processed.    What about our relationships?


This is has the potential to be the most toxic burden we carry around and usually the last one we address.  We are sick, down, out, discouraged, often hopeless, despair kicks in and depression seems to be our constant internal voice.  We attract what we are sending out, so on our path to wholeness as we begin to "wake up" in the land of the living we may soon begin to realize that we have surrounded ourselves with others that are just as "stuck" as we are, or sometimes, more stuck.  These other folks might be life long friends, family, church family, clubs family, etc.  There are broken people everywhere. I believe that at all times, in varying ways, we are all broken, but are we reaching up to wholeness, or are we plummeting down towards lifelessness?  Who are we bringing with us?


 It is impossible to avoid brokenness completely, but we can choose who we allow "in".  Everything I listed in the first paragraph are the toxins we want OUT, but with relationships it is our choice who we allow IN.  WE should be much more choosy.  These choices will require us to grow ourselves to be the person we want to be around.  I would often wonder in my darkest hours what had happened to the real me?  Where was I?  Why couldn't I find me?  I didn't want to be like this.  I realized that people didn't want to be around me, I didn't either.  I was so lost and hurting, focusing on negative patterns and beliefs, pulled down into abysmal thinking and behaviors.  It is painful to change when we feel so justified as to why we are the way we are.  WE don't think we can change because we are so ill.  We build walls to protect ourselves from fears real or imaginary.  We do all kinds of things and hope people will accept us unconditionally.  We decide that our perception is the truth and there we are...stuck.


 Those of us battling Lyme and company feel beyond broken, quite often misunderstood,  so we don't really notice the level of brokenness we surround ourselves with.  Sometimes, for many of us, we are actually VERY alone and broken just fighting to survive.  People will avoid us like the plague due to our shattered condition which tends to lead us inward praying that someone would reach out to us and stand with us through the process of healing.  We expect a lot of these people.  We want them to be just about perfect.  We want them to want to be around us and listen to us and nurture us and support us, and if we are truly blessed we are given this gift in another human being.  Sometimes our own toxicity, due to our pain and inability to think, repels those who would otherwise be willing to fill our desired gaps.  The whole thing is twisted and seriously upsetting. 


What happens energetically when we are surrounded by people who are negative, make agreements with death and disease, gossip, tear themselves apart, are passive aggressive, co-dependent, make excuses, project themselves on others, have addictive bents that are self-destructive and cause harm to others? We become like them.


 This energy is chemistry in action.  I think of it as the oxygen molecule which has 6 electrons in its outer ring, always looking to make 8, so it easily combines with two Hydrogen to do this.  When we are around people like this (maybe we are people like this) they literally suck the life right out of us by joining with us and then we soon are orbiting with them.  It then becomes a toxic molecule.  When we have so little life force, why are we giving it away?  Is it because we can only find other people like us?  Is it because there are so few who "get" what we are going through, so we commiserate together and are willing to settle for what we can get?


This last year has been quite a process for me, an unraveling, a rediscovery, a lesson about change and growth.  It has been excruciatingly painful and the growing pains, at times, have been almost intolerable.  The whole theme has been about relationships and the person I have become due to the company I have kept.  Who am I without the symptoms of this disease destroying me? Who do I want to be in the land of the living? What type of people do I want to attract and allow "in" my life?


There have been days when I have thought...maybe I should just go back to working on all the other toxins in my life, but God has gently been guiding, leading, and directing me to face my fears and to learn to let go and trust that His ways are not my ways and HIS plans are continually for my good as I choose to walk in HIS light I find I have light to share.


Lately, I have been walking away from relationships that I have realized have brought me to a level that I have passed.  I am moving up one level at a time in how I view life, love, peace, joy, truth, friendship, family, happiness etc.  My kindnesses have been abused to the point that I was finding myself wanting to stop being kind??? Insult after insult was being hurled at me, or circular reasoning was being used to convince me why my kindnesses were greed or control or manipulation???  Once I could see that these people were projecting their own stuff on me I began to find myself being freed as I started to take inventory on what was really "mine" and what was really "theirs".  I encourage everyone to go through this before you make contact with other people, so you don't continue to carry around others' baggage.  We can truly take on others behaviors, beliefs, pain, negativity, and so much more.  Make sure to give them back their stuff before you leave their presence.  We each have enough of our own baggage to deal with.


Where is my line?  What are my boundaries?  I would be more than happy to have these people join me, but when asked to take the tests required to pass the answer is often no, not yes.  Some of them like where they are at, others say they don't, but do not do what is required to prepare for the test well enough to pass.  They are stuck in the past, clinging to it, like it is saving them.  It is tragic to me.  Walking away has been very hard, but as I have chosen growth, God has been providing new people who I want "in" my life.  People who want to grow and change too.  People who see that they don't have to limit themselves and can be whole.  People who know they have choice and are agreeing with life.  It is so stimulating and refreshing to be around these people and the longer I get to spend with them the more positive energy we generate and the more I realize my view point is clearing up.  I see things differently.  I have many levels yet to rise, but I am here to tell you...I am going to rise.  I will prepare for the tests and take them, regardless of their difficulty because it is worth the labor and price.


Relationships that are healthy are just as important, if not more so, than what we eat, wear, smell, touch, or use.


  Using biofeedback has truly cemented my belief that most of our health issues begin as an emotional/spiritual dysfunction or trauma.  When we begin to get to the root and dig it out...the whole tree comes falling down, and we can plant a new one.


This is still a work in progress.  I believe it always will be, from glory to glory.  I love people, truly and dearly, but some people are just toxic and until they choose to heal and grow, I must love them and pray for them at a distance.


Take a toxic inventory and challenge yourself to become the person you want as a friend.  See if you will begin to attract this.  It is fun, but you will be required to grow and change.  No pain...no gain.


Until next time.  Shalom!

Friday, November 21, 2014

Updated: Nikkoly's doTERRA CPTG Lyme and Co-Infections Protocol

I am often asked to outline my protocol, which is dynamic as I learn and apply more understanding.  I truly have found that if I change things up or take a break a bit every 2 months (My initial course of action was as long as it took to become symptom free which took 4 months, now I pulse every two months, it takes at least 3 months to get to the cellular level which is ideal)  I have the most success and don't tend to hyper react to the substances that are intended to create wellness.  I do NOT have herxheimer reactions any longer.  I do not believe they are beneficial and have proven that with myself and in my own family and with those I work with.  Causing more stress to the body to get better goes against everything that makes sense to me, especially when Lyme already stretches a body to the limits.


I did happen to activate my Lyme symptoms by being on the CGAM Body Charger for too long on the numbers for bacteria.  The good news is that it just took me a couple of weeks to beat those bacteria back and get on with restoration.


My mantra is that whatever oil I use in any fashion I must also deeply inhale from the bottle in each nostril 3x.  I am pretty oil saturated.  :)


Here is the "core" of my protocol:


3 drops 3 x a day in a capsule to be taken with food on your stomach:


oregano and melaleuca  (The melaleuca sloughs off the biofilm and the oregano kills the bacteria.
onGuard-a blend that boosts immune response)
Cassia/Cinnamon (alternate these every two weeks due to the varying chemical constituents)
thyme and clove  (to keep the bacteria from replicating)
Frankincense (to help with inflammation and to cross the blood brain barrier and help with neurological issues and degeneration)


Use Clary Calm as deodorant -great for hormone health, PMS, and Menopause and much more


Take 3 drops 3x a day in between meals:


zendocrine oil (liver detox, lymphatic decongestant, endocrine health, Candida, cardiovascular support, digestive aid, and much more)
 (I also take 2 capsules of Zendocrine Capsules at this time-I also rub the zendocrine oil over my liver, kidneys, and abdomen at least 1x a day)
cilantro oil (heavy metal chelation, kidney and liver support, cell reconstruction, brain health....)
grapefruit oil (petrochemical dissolvent, water retention, lymphatic decongestant, burn fat, cardiovascular health, kidney and liver disorders...._


Keep Slim and Sassy (8 drops in 16 oz. of water) in my water throughout the day to keep metabolism and energy levels up.  This helps with sugar regulation and satiation as well as uptake of nutrients.  I will alternate this with lemon every two months to help reduce toxic load and prevent degeneration.
Terrazyme - 1-3 before a meal and as needed.  Food should energize us.  We should not feel sluggish, bloated, or gaseous as a result of eating, play with the amount you need.  I know I need more when I eat animal protein.  It is very difficult for my body to digest these proteins.
DigestZen (digestive aid and support, 1-3 drops under tongue, over stomach, and in belly button)


Keep oils diffusing throughout the day (do not underestimate the power of oils diffusing throughout the day-I have found this to be a real KEY):
Citrus Bliss (mood enhancer)
Purify (clean air)
Onguard (immune boosting)
Breathe (respiratory)
Balance (calms nervous system)
Serenity (insomnia/anxiety)


Lifelong Vitality Pack 2 capsules 2x a day
Mito 2 Max 2 capsules 2x a day
Bone Nutrient 2 capsules 2x a day


Immortelle on my face morning and night
doTERRA Skin care systems.  I love them ALL.


I take lemongrass or cedarwood with me to my massages and have my therapists use these oils on me for connective tissue repair and muscle relaxation.


I use the AromaTouch Technique on my family and myself.


For Hormones and Heart:


Each am diffuse Citrus Bliss
rub Elevation and Ylang Ylang over my heart (1-3 drops) and inhale deeply
diffuse Balance in the afternoon
Rub Serenity and Clary Sage on the bottom of my feet at night and either diffuse roman chamomile, Serenity, or Balance next to my bed at night.




Vanilla Trim Shake with ginger, wild orange, or lemon with fruit, nuts, and coconut oil are so tasty.




The more experiences I have with the oils the more I become aware of what my body needs throughout the day.  I have a chemical/energetic  reaction with these oils and have learned to pay attention to my responses and to stick with them long enough to produce the desired change/results.  Consistency is Paramount!!!!!  These oils prioritize and take care of first things first, so it takes some time to get in there and take care of business. 


I do maintain chiropractic care 2x a month, acupuncture 1x a month, massage 2x a month-often includes cranial sacral, SCIO  biofeedback 1x a week, CGAM Body Charger 1-2x a week, HALO photonics 1x a week.


On my two months off the oils I use other products. The oils are very powerful and you must be sure to take probiotics every night to keep bowel flora balanced.  PB Assist is a super probiotic.  I usually take 2 before bed.


I also use GUTS for 2 months on and then off  www.mannafromheaven.com/reallylive  to keep that bowel moving strong.  I initially had to take several to get things cleaned up, but now I rarely have to take them.  It is essential that you drink about a gallon of water a day when you take these.


I eat as gluten free, dairy free, and sugar free as possible.  I avoid alcohol and am working on eliminating caffeine from my daily routine again.  This diet thing does have an ebb and flow and sometimes I am way better than at other times.  I feel best drinking vegetable and fruit juices, raw foods, and staying away from animal protein.  My body LOVES FAT!  Coconut oil, avocado, UDO's 3-6-9, and butter.  I realize I digest better if most of my foods are liquid:  green drinks, smoothies, and bone broths and soups.  I eat fermented foods like sauerkraut, kombucha, and pickles.  All grains, regardless, are REALLY hard on me, so I try to avoid them as much as possible. Treating Lyme and company takes a lot of hard work, but it is SOOOOO worth it to really live again!!!


I am working on a website that will soon have video tutorials of the different things I have done or presently do that have helped me regain my life and vitality.  Keep checking in:  www.reallylivewellness.com


Please check out my website:  www.mydoterra.com/nikkolystanley


If you have any questions about ordering, or the oils specifically, give me a call:  509-881-4152







Thursday, August 21, 2014

2 Years Symptom Free

This truly is a milestone worthy of noting.  Two years of freedom from symptoms of Lyme disease since this past July. Life is such a precious gift and I am very grateful to still be alive and really living.  I hope for every single precious person reading these entries that you too discover your hope and light at the end of the tunnel.  It can be so isolating to have this disease, so tormenting, so awful in every single way.  I salute you for not giving up and fighting the good fight.  You can do it.  Keep on keeping on.


I went running for the first time in years the other day and boy there were muscles I forgot existed and they each had something to say to me, but here it is two days and a massage later and I have rebounded.  The old lyme me would still be suffering untold agonies.  For me, this is HUGE.  Not only could I run, but I can recover and have a normal inflammation cycle!  Victory!  I used to LOVE to run.  It was great to have something so simple restored back to me.


I am often asked to simplify what I did or do and truly the truth of this whole thing is that there isn't anything simple about it.  It is a lot of work, a lot of effort, a lot of money, a lot of time, a lot of trial and error, a lot of giving up, a lot of gains, a lot of loses, and  just simply put...a lot, a lot.  I can now look back at the last two years and say, "It is all worth it." 


There is a device called SCIO biofeedback that I am now using and it is a fantastic piece of technology used for stress reduction.  It is fun to use on me and others and see the body respond so quickly.  I am in training and working on getting my biofeedback technician certification.  I just love learning and the fact that I can retain the information without short term memory loss is unbelievably glorious.  Sometimes my head feels like it is going to just burst, but I get so excited and before I know it the information has assimilated and I am ready to go for what is next.  The human body and mind is undeniably more fantastic than we truly can comprehend.  WE limit ourselves by our mindset each and every day and we DON'T have to do that!!!!  Agreeing with life, speaking life into what is not, believing, hoping, and trusting are HUGE in this healing journey.  Of course, I can't have an entry without mentioning the act of forgiveness.  Most of us are sick because we have stored stress in our vital organs and tissues for way too many years.  Who do we need to forgive:  God, ourselves, and others.  We often fool ourselves into believing we have done that, but the body knows the truth and holds it.  Forgiveness is so releasing...a true letting go and trusting that it is taken care of with a divine understanding beyond our ability to fathom.  The freedom and hope that replaces what unforgiveness tore asunder is outrageously beneficial in every imaginable way.


Sure, eating fermented foods, easily digestible foods packed full of nutrients, proper rest, hydration, oxygenation, clinical modalities such as massage, chiropractic, and acupuncture, and movement are all still very much a must for maintaining vitality.  Each day still presents challenges and I still am in recovery from the years of damage done to my body, but it doesn't hold me back and keep me from living.  I dare to live, to dream, and to help others.  It is phenomenal to have that sense of purpose again.  I had forgotten what it was like to be able to think beyond the pain. 


My mental gymnastics are less difficult now that I am thinking more clearly.  It is so freeing to not have so much guilt, panic, and social inadequacies swarming around in my head.  Sometimes I just want to go outside and shout, "I AM ALIVE!!!"  Okay, I do that sometimes.  :)


The hardest part for me at this juncture is that I have developed some unhealthy relational practices over the years of tremendous illness and now that I am of sounder mind the perspective has cleared and I am seeing things in a light that I hadn't noticed before.  Unhealthy relationships are severely damaging to the mind, body, soul, and spirit.  It seems when we are the most unhealthy is when we seem (generally speaking) to be the most surrounded by these.  After some time of not living through the lenses of pain and suffering and insomnia it is almost horrific how I was allowing such damaging relationships into my life.  Choice is powerful and I have been exercising it with care, but with intention.  I choose life!!!!  Join me.


 I am getting better by cleaning up from the inside out.  This Lyme disease thing is a WHOLE body and OUT of body experience.  It is definitely not for the light of heart.


Shalom!!!!!